Work in progress
I wanted to name this blog My Best Life, but that was taken, so I went to thesaurus.com and looked for a synonym for the word best. Beyond compare jumped out at me and I knew that was what this blog needed to be called.
The purpose for this blog is to act as a journal for me. I started having what has become chronic pain and fatigue a few months ago. I've been seeing a rheumatologist who is currently not committing to a permanent diagnosis, but for now, is calling what I have an "unnamed pain syndrome." If you've heard of fibromyalgia and know what that is, that is the best way to describe how I feel. Looking back, I've had issues with this for awhile, but it didn't get really bad until a few months back. I've been under a lot of stress the last couple of years with finishing up college, Hurricane Harvey flooding a couple of buildings at work, and changes in my job. Apparently, it reached a point where it was too much and my body is reacting. I wish I could explain what this feels like and I'm going to try. The best way that I can think of is to say that it is like having the flu. Every joint and muscle in your body hurts. You feel so tired that you don't think that you can lift your arms or keep your head up. I worked out the other day because I was having a good day and it knocked me on my butt for the next 2 days. I'm used to constantly moving and doing and I can't do that anymore. Not for now anyway. The hope is that we'll find a medication that works for me, so I can get back to a normal life, most of the time.
Yesterday, my doctor put me on Gabapentin. I took the first dose last night and I'm not sure what I'm feeling today. It typically doesn't start working right away and I'm also dealing with a sinus infection. Today has been bad. I'm trying to make it through the day, but all I really want to do is lay my head down on my desk. I'm dizzy and my mouth is so dry, both of which are side effects of the medication. I have to work my way up to 3 pills a day and I'm really hoping this gets better.
I'm a work in progress. I have faith that God will lead my doctor to the right treatment and that He will give me the strength to keep going. Philippians 4:13 - I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.
You may be asking why I've decided to make this public. I'm willing to be open and vulnerable if it helps you and I'm hoping that it will help me to get it out instead of letting this all churn around inside. Maybe you can relate to this. Maybe someone you love is going through this. Maybe you're someone who loves me and wants to know what is going on. I would love to hear from you.
Until next time...
The purpose for this blog is to act as a journal for me. I started having what has become chronic pain and fatigue a few months ago. I've been seeing a rheumatologist who is currently not committing to a permanent diagnosis, but for now, is calling what I have an "unnamed pain syndrome." If you've heard of fibromyalgia and know what that is, that is the best way to describe how I feel. Looking back, I've had issues with this for awhile, but it didn't get really bad until a few months back. I've been under a lot of stress the last couple of years with finishing up college, Hurricane Harvey flooding a couple of buildings at work, and changes in my job. Apparently, it reached a point where it was too much and my body is reacting. I wish I could explain what this feels like and I'm going to try. The best way that I can think of is to say that it is like having the flu. Every joint and muscle in your body hurts. You feel so tired that you don't think that you can lift your arms or keep your head up. I worked out the other day because I was having a good day and it knocked me on my butt for the next 2 days. I'm used to constantly moving and doing and I can't do that anymore. Not for now anyway. The hope is that we'll find a medication that works for me, so I can get back to a normal life, most of the time.
Yesterday, my doctor put me on Gabapentin. I took the first dose last night and I'm not sure what I'm feeling today. It typically doesn't start working right away and I'm also dealing with a sinus infection. Today has been bad. I'm trying to make it through the day, but all I really want to do is lay my head down on my desk. I'm dizzy and my mouth is so dry, both of which are side effects of the medication. I have to work my way up to 3 pills a day and I'm really hoping this gets better.
I'm a work in progress. I have faith that God will lead my doctor to the right treatment and that He will give me the strength to keep going. Philippians 4:13 - I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.
You may be asking why I've decided to make this public. I'm willing to be open and vulnerable if it helps you and I'm hoping that it will help me to get it out instead of letting this all churn around inside. Maybe you can relate to this. Maybe someone you love is going through this. Maybe you're someone who loves me and wants to know what is going on. I would love to hear from you.
Until next time...
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